luminous beings { mars
Jan 1, 2014 9:54:25 GMT -8
Jan 1, 2014 9:54:25 GMT -8
she has stepped across the border and into windclan, but her mind is somewhere else. there's the buzzing of a fly in the background, and it sounds like it's paying dues to starclan-- if only starclan was there to listen. her eyes search for other figures (-- it seems like such a beautiful day when she was sitting in the camp with her healing leg, but that was before she went out and heard all of the jeers of the clan cats. riverclan is weak. and everyone knows that) and she tries to visit tallstar, but it's too early even for that. her whiskers bounce idly in the wind before she breaks her staring contest with the the figure she sees just up ahead to recommence a frequent fling with the sunshine. she looks at her leg she shouldn't be out here she should be resting it's the home stretch, you can do it ravenpaw. (show them that you're worthy of it) she forces herself to take a bounds closer to the figure in messy, lazy form she can worry about form later. salvation rings like a bell in her mind, though not as loud, she looks up, forcing herself to shielding a yawn. her whiskers twitching with annoyance, she shakes her pelt and keep walking towards the figure. overall, she loves being outside (-- despite all the lecturing she knows that she will get when she comes back. especially in rough times like this). maybe she’s still caught in the daydream of excitement from the gathering-- not even excitement. perhaps just.. weariness, still ensnared in the tangle of graciousness; forcing herself to adore the late nights looking at the starless sky, the driest of lectures from others, just because she has been partaking in a privilege others did not get-- the survival of the fury of starclan. but who said she wanted to survive it? even as she lived, it was not truly living. it is times like this where she regrets the contract she’s signed in blood that keeps her tied to the nest of starclan, no matter how absent, for the duration of her life. graciousness. (just bite your tongue and say “thank you.”) and as she came closer to the camp and the stench of wind warriors, it would be a lie to say she doesn't see the apprentice almost immediately. at least she can manage to keep the smile within the realms of casual admiration and a safe distance from any extremes as she approaches them, because dazed as she is, other clanners inspires restlessness. and weariness. “hello there. i am.. i'm looking for tallstar.” she mews. |