Bittersweet Goodbyes (White)
Jan 22, 2014 14:28:11 GMT -8
Jan 22, 2014 14:28:11 GMT -8
He waited here after the 'meeting' had occurred, just a few hours after. No statements, no goodbyes were exchanged with many of his ex clanmates, save for those close to him. No excuses were given for his choices, no voice from his throat was raised when he watched his home tear itself apart. He was a silent observer, face composed and neutral where as his soul and heart screamed in agony. The past few weeks had seemed like an eternal nightmare that had made the veteran warrior numb to the outside world. Fires, sickness, starvation, and now this. In Shadowclan's greatest test, not only did they fail, they failed spectacularly. Ashstrike could only watch in horror as the original warrior code was trampled, passions were ignited, and family struck against family. He felt like he had failed somehow. What would his mentor think? What would their ANCESTORS think?
He personally reached the conclusion that that they failed their ancestors... How disappointed they must be in them.
Currently, the muscular tom stared out at the scorched expanse that was once the hunting grounds of his youth. Memories of stalking frogs, lizards, snakes, and even the occasional mouse or bird played in his mind over and over almost as if he was desperate to solidify it to memory. More than anything, he remembered coming here with his mentor and fellow clanmates to spar and patrol...
He tried to remember things like that. Tried to remember when everything was relatively fine, when Shadowclan was large and prosperous and the territories they had were wet and green. He tried to recall the bog ponds, the leafy pines, and the lush ferns. However, the only thing his icy-blue eyes saw or could easily recall was what was right in front of him... Dry, cracked ground with scant mud puddles filled with ash, scorched skeletons of once mighty evergreens, and crumbling thistles. What perturbed him the most was that he had trouble recalling warmth and connection with his clanmates as well. Ashstrike had trouble remembering those days and it SCARED him. It challenged everything that he grew up with, every problem he had as an apprentice and a kit, and it left a heavy pit in his gut and throat.
Maybe if he could scent the air a little more he could pick up the faintest scent of the swamp underneath the fire and ash. However, only the acidic, choking stench of burnt life greeted him. Before he could reflect more on this though, the faint sound of someone's approach was made clear. Ears perking, he could tell it was one cat, and yes, it was one cat. Whoever they were, they were an excellent stalker. Expecting anyone, either from the remnants of Shadowclan or a clan mate turned stranger, the actual individual herself shocked him in his entirety. Out of all the people it could have been, it had been her. Blue eyes initially widened, Ashstrike quickly composed himself and gave a subtle dip of his head.
"Whitesmoke." His voice was clear, and carefully maintained with a neutral tone. His face betrayed nothing, save for guarded attentiveness.
He personally reached the conclusion that that they failed their ancestors... How disappointed they must be in them.
Currently, the muscular tom stared out at the scorched expanse that was once the hunting grounds of his youth. Memories of stalking frogs, lizards, snakes, and even the occasional mouse or bird played in his mind over and over almost as if he was desperate to solidify it to memory. More than anything, he remembered coming here with his mentor and fellow clanmates to spar and patrol...
He tried to remember things like that. Tried to remember when everything was relatively fine, when Shadowclan was large and prosperous and the territories they had were wet and green. He tried to recall the bog ponds, the leafy pines, and the lush ferns. However, the only thing his icy-blue eyes saw or could easily recall was what was right in front of him... Dry, cracked ground with scant mud puddles filled with ash, scorched skeletons of once mighty evergreens, and crumbling thistles. What perturbed him the most was that he had trouble recalling warmth and connection with his clanmates as well. Ashstrike had trouble remembering those days and it SCARED him. It challenged everything that he grew up with, every problem he had as an apprentice and a kit, and it left a heavy pit in his gut and throat.
Maybe if he could scent the air a little more he could pick up the faintest scent of the swamp underneath the fire and ash. However, only the acidic, choking stench of burnt life greeted him. Before he could reflect more on this though, the faint sound of someone's approach was made clear. Ears perking, he could tell it was one cat, and yes, it was one cat. Whoever they were, they were an excellent stalker. Expecting anyone, either from the remnants of Shadowclan or a clan mate turned stranger, the actual individual herself shocked him in his entirety. Out of all the people it could have been, it had been her. Blue eyes initially widened, Ashstrike quickly composed himself and gave a subtle dip of his head.
"Whitesmoke." His voice was clear, and carefully maintained with a neutral tone. His face betrayed nothing, save for guarded attentiveness.