to my lovely members

to my lovely members who i cherish and care for so much,

please know that i am doing this for you. the drastic change in the attitude of the community has knocked the wind out of me and i cannot recover. i will not recover, because progress does not backpedal and this will forever be the way it is. things have changed, and while i miss what i had when i was younger, i fail to realize that those times are over.

i come from a very affluent society. my views and thoughts come from these values and notions. i have the luxury to be here, while many of you scrap time together just to say hi. i can always be here--i would always be here, but you all cannot.

and so i don't think it's fair to anyone that i stay, that i expect so much from you guys because i have the luxury myself. i have thought about it a lot, considered it a lot, but today was the straw. i have every specific administration views that have worked for gossamer thus far, but i think everyone is becoming weary of my high demands, because i cannot relate to you, cannot fathom the idea of being strapped for time.

this is the last site, proboards or other, that i will ever run. at twenty years old, i think it is time i say goodbye to administering and, at least try, to enter the world i fear most. i am terrified of what life might be like if i didn't have something to care about, like this site, but i will have to find out. 

i may return as a member someday, i might not. i don't know yet. the pain of returning may be too great to bear, or the site, unfortunately, may not be here for my return.

i leave you all in the capable hands of shin, white, harlequin, and smalls, and i hope you all understand that this needs to be done, and that i will always remember you, and i am just a computer click away.

goodbye, my beloved friends,

tallsie